i'd fall continuously for a thousand miles

over and over again

By szexuan · October 19, 2009 · 0 Comments · 5 Views

why

must

we

have

an

argument

every

single

day

?

my

fault

okay

?

everytime

also

my

fault

.

sorry

sorry

sorry

sorry

sorry

sorry

.

but

it

doesnt

help

,

does

it

?

fml.

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By szexuan · October 10, 2009 · 0 Comments · 9 Views
at baby's place now and ive been here since 12 plus i think.. didnt sleep fr the entire night and i woke waicheng up at about 6plus cuz i was so damn bored. had breakfast with her and caught up quite a bit with her. :) bus-ed ovr to meet baby and his dad. hahaha his dad is much friendlier than i thought! his whole family is damn friendly and nice ^^ we studied and all and i drew on baby's entire body HAHAHAHAHA. right now he's sleeping next to me cuz he toke medicine and he's sleepy so i'm using the laptop like some loner girl. :( baby's sister is damn cute! not as idiotic as that stupid boyfriend of mine.. ily, and i don't ever wanna lose you. :)

shi tian le~

By szexuan · October 2, 2009 · 2 Comments · 24 Views

outing tmr with abel pamela renee nic brenda in town! im quite looking forward to it but i wanto wear my shirt and shorts. :( wahaha and i just toke b's quiz and i got 93%! pro notzxz~ ohwell 25 more days to o's! quite eggcited cuz i cant wait for o's to end, srsly. study leave has officially started! happy only ^^

sigh b was sick yesterday so i wanted to suprise him tdy. then guess what? genius yau overslept -.- wtf right ttly ruined everything!!! damn irritating. sigh i still go discreetly ask him his fav porridge and all. wlao in the end nvr even go. :(

sry for being such a bastard. i'll treasure you more kay, pinky promise. :)

happy girl ^^

By szexuan · September 24, 2009 · 0 Comments · 4 Views

i love my bf :-)

but i hate him cuz he always say i fat, then when i wan go on diet he scold me.

wtf is this right -.-

HE THIS CBK.

k laaaa need to go out le buaiz ^^

i think i feel smth but wht isit?

By szexuan · September 12, 2009 · 1 Comment · 19 Views

so freaking tired now cuz i tonned the whole night with renee and abel and pamela :-(

caught the ugly truth yesterday!!!! super funny and nice show heehee everybdy go watch kkk ^^

k off to meet lynn for dindin now i'm so sorry i couldn't wake up in time just now so we missed the chunk fest :'(

make it up to you next yr k!!! LOVE YA DA MOST mwack mwacks :-*

luv my life now everything's going so smoothly ^^ ^^ ^^

i can't wait for sch to start so i do hardcore revision!!! SHOCKED NOT HAHAHA.

love isn't finding the perfect person,

it's seeing an imperfect person perfectly :-)

how can i miss you whn you nvr once stayed?

By szexuan · September 8, 2009 · 0 Comments · 8 Views

PLANS FOR THE DAY:

- clementi to study

- dindin with lynn and pam ^^

- membina for bball?

- home before 12

YAY i is a happy girl cuz me got a new packkkkkk heeheehee later can show off to cheryl lim liaoz who ask her always haolian to me she got fresh new pack!!!! :-) :-)

baby, don't talk to me i'm trying to let go

not loving you is harder than you know...

givin' up

By szexuan · September 7, 2009 · 0 Comments · 5 Views

school is fine, life is good. 50+ more days to O's and i can say i'm quite prepared? at least more prepared than before. can;t wait for the stupid O's to be over so i can enjoy life okay heeheehee. can't wait to turn 18 even more! legal le lei~ dont need to always sneak ard to sb or ask people to buy so fcuking mafan okay. and i wna get <15 for my O's cuz somebdy promised me smth if i get <15 for my O's! hmmm but dk if that person still rmbr not... okay la i wan go offline le nth to type anw and its 2.19am buh bye ^.^

you meant so much to me, you were the one thing I tried so hard to hold on to.

so damn fcuking hard i swear....

you mess up my thoughts , unknowingly.

By szexuan · August 1, 2009 · 0 Comments · 0 Views
Nothing lasts forever , not even friendship.
f.y.i I'm not szexuan.
haiiiiiiiiii , that pig.
By szexuan · July 30, 2009 · 0 Comments · 0 Views
I miss you.

Omg idk why but i suddenly feel very stressed :( I'm doing my F&N coursework partB at crystal's place now and i am fucking lagging in EVERYTHING. I'm so pissed with myself :( Idk why i'm always like this. See? Regret again. Whole day whole life regretting. Whole day whole life crying. Whole day whole life thinking about nonsensical stuff. Whole day whole life slacking. Whole day whole life waste time. Whole day whole life make empty promises to myself and to everybody. Whole day whole life make people disappointed in me only. Whole day whole life only know how to keep lying to myself, lying to everybody, living in self denial. I hate myself, so so much. I'm so tired of life. Fuck it. I feel like just breaking down and cry, but i know it won't help to salvage things, so what's the point?
I think i need a break, from everyone and everything.

You have no idea how much i need you by my side right now...
By szexuan · July 29, 2009 · 0 Comments · 0 Views
Maybe its time to let go.

Studying for SS now! I'm still coughing after 2wks and the flu came to visit too. My eyes are so tired and swollen after crying like a moron for so many consecutive days. Ugh. Hate myself so much :-( :-( :-(

I hope you find somebody else that loves you like i tried to.